Sunday, August 19, 2007

Another Random Ipod Post

It's time for another one of those free associating random play lists. I like doing these, because, hopefully, it pulls up something that I haven't thought of in awhile.



1. Money Changes Everything- Cyndi Lauper

Figures, I really like this song, but it doesn't really bring up any major memories, except being in school and insisting to friends that she had a better voice than Madonna. I'm still right on that one.

2. Effect and Cause- The White Stripes

This is a live version, and this is still too new, live or otherwise to have any deep seeded memories. I remember seeing them perform it on Conan, they did a good job. I really do like this song, though. It's one of my favorites on Icky. It does remind me that I never really reviewed Icky here... I'll get to it, maybe.

3. I Want You- Hanoi Rocks

One of my favorite songs off my favorite Hanoi album. I've listened to this song so many times over the years and it always makes me smile. It's a cheerful type of song, musically anyway. The lyrics are a little desperate, but the song is so strong musically that it just pisses me off at Vince Neil all over again. I also remember listening to this song with those huge headphones, turned up ultra loud trying to figure out this one word Mike Monroe was saying. It turned out to be whoo. His sax on this track is so great.... the new stuff is alright, but Mike and Andy are both so bitter and jaded now.... this old stuff is just the best.

4. Nightrain-Guns N Roses

Wow. Ok, memories from any song on this album are so strong. There's the overwhelming strength behind this song. I used to use it when I was nervous about doing something. Oh hell, I used the whole album for that. Throw on GNR and I could breeze through anything. There were also the times, hanging out with my friends where this song would come on and the whole room would just explode into song. This song would get played so much by my old friends that it's permanently embedded as a happy song. It's connected to some really great memories, except for the night we actually tried Night Train and man does that shit suck! I could and will do a whole post on Appetite someday, it's worth it.

5. Sanctified- Nine Inch Nails

PHM is in the top 3 of my favorite albums. It's usually in the number one spot, but there have been some White Stripes entries that have briefly hit the top spot. It's also my go to album for relationship angst. There are memories attached to this song, but there aren't any that are happy ones. This song pretty much is attached to any major breakup I've had since it came out. Listening to it now, without a break up going on, I'm just really enjoying it.

6. Pin Your Heart To Me-The Jacobites.

This song makes me think of Kevin Junior. He turned me onto the Jacobites and threw this song on a tape for me. The tape was some Hanoi stuff and then some other stuff as tape filler. There was an amazing Dogs track as well, but I loved this song. I asked him about The Jacobites one day and it opened up the floodgates on one of the longest music related conversations I've ever had. We were working together at the time at a record store that wasn't really busy and the conversation pretty much lasted all day. I had an enormous crush on him at the time, I think I've mentioned that here before, and therefore, whatever he said was of earth shattering importance, but when the crush faded..years later sadly, this song remained and I still think of him every time I hear it. The nice thing is there are no bad memories attached to Kevin so the song remains pure and I still love it as much as I did the first day I heard it. Except, the one on the tape, I'd swear is a different version that the one I have on disc now. I still have the tape somewhere, I should find it and double check...but I doubt the tape is even playable, even if I could find it. But I still have a version and still listen to it, so it's all happy stuff.

7. Little Red Corvette-Prince

I remember this song making one of my friends in high school cry because she just overloaded on the fact that this song was about sex. I was terrified to play the 1999 album for her, or anything he did before that. It still makes me laugh to think about it. I also remember dancing to this song with a guy I was dating and we were fighting through the entire song. That makes me laugh too. I was a huge Prince junkie and am still a fan and I just loved this song because it was just so much fun. I loved Delirious for the same reason.

8. Helpless-Metallica
This one has dark memories. Not dark as in bad, but dark as in I remember sitting around with a group of friends in my boyfriend at the time's garage and listening to this, with just one candle lit. It was really dark and that's what I remember, the darkness and the really simple fact that we were all just hanging out, there was no tension, it was completely cool and relaxed. the darkness in this scene was like another friend. No one needed to talk, we all just sat around and appreciated what was then a great cover by a great band. The good old days.

9. Wicked Sensation- Lynch Mob
I love this song, but the memory it brings is that tv show where they performed it live and the singer fucked it up so bad, George Lynch fired him when they got offstage. Wish I remembered what show that was. But anyway, great song, all full of energy and excitement. I miss songs like that.

10. Starry Eyes- Motley Crue
This song always seemed so cheesy. Especially knowing what we all know about the Crue back then. Nikki didn't have these feelings for anyone. I remember a girl I went to high school with who got pissed because her boyfriend wouldn't dedicate this to her. I was friends with the guy and he was so incredibly confused about. She broke up with him over it and the next girl he dated, he dedicated it to.

That's it,
Later

Thursday, August 16, 2007

I'll Bet You Think This Post Is about You

I deleted a post today. I've never done that before. I just figure that no one reads the old stuff anyway. Today, after a lot of thought, I deleted the "Best People in the Dart League"post. I really didn't want to. Most of the list stayed the same, but there were a few people on that list who I've changed my mind about. Some who should have been rated higher, some lower, and a few who shouldn't have been on there at all. I can't say that I've really enjoyed seeing the sides of the people I changed my mind about, but I've learned so much. There's one person who still would have made the list even though he's seriously hurt me, and learning that wasn't pretty, but it didn't change what I knew of him fundamentally as a person. So, he stayed. The people who caused the post to be deleted, hurt me beyond repair. Oddly, maybe I'll stay friends with some of them, maybe not, but it's all made me look at everything in a new light. Rather than working in the editing, and the explanations, I just deleted the post. Sorry to all who were still on it and cared, but it was easier than using this as a forum to hurt people.
The point here is that people change, maybe. Some are stagnant, but for the most part, we change. I've changed and a lot of people I know have changed, and it's had an effect on my relationships with almost all of them. I've come to realize that I'm not all that proud of having the friends that I have. In some cases, I've learned that I don't even really like some of them, and have just been dealing with them out of habit. It's a weird feeling, but one I'm coming to terms with.
Things have been rough lately, and I'm starting to come out on the other side and wow, am I looking at things differently. It's refreshing and new. I'm trying to keep out of the darker sides of my life, not really looking too much around the edges, but all in all, things are cool. Except for the whole friendship thing. I'm working on that, mostly figuring out who is who and where everyone fits in. The realization that there are going to be people who just don't fit anymore is odd, but I'm dealing with it.
So, just wanted to explain the deletion and prove I'm still alive.

Later-
Me