Friday, September 28, 2007

Don't Put Another Dime In The Jukebox

We all have songs that we can't listen to because someone or something has ruined them for us forever. Notice how those are always the songs we pull out when we want to be miserable. I think I have enough for a list, so here they are.

1. Photograph by Def Leppard
This song is the absolute description of a non-relationship I had. It's such a shame because I love this song so much, but now it's incredibly difficult to listen to. It's the song that will forever make me ache for THE ONE who got away. Also see #9. Same person, different song.

2. December-Collective Soul
This song started out so well. It was in a scene in a soap opera and I really liked it, but it became a song that reminds me of someone who got away.

3. I Want To Be Your Boyfriend-The Ramones
A really horrible relationship started with someone singing this to me.

4. Have I Told You Lately-Rod Stewart
I can't even own a copy of this song.

5. I Want You Around-The Ramones
Someone used to sing this to me every night. I still cry when I hear it.

6. The Speed Of Pain-Marilyn Manson
Someone dedicated this to me and I relive the relationship whenever I hear it.

7. User Friendly-Marilyn Manson
See Above.

8. Dying-Hole
It's the ultimate breakup song and it was the theme for an extremely destructive relationship. Still adore it though.

9. Think About You-Guns N Roses
"I love you best"....... speaks all says all

10. Wild Thing-Sam Kinison
I adore the original of this, but when Sam did this song there was a speaking part. "Somewhere someone, whether it was last week or sixth grade, someone broke your heart! What was her name?" I was sitting in a room with a bunch of my friends, the majority were guys and almost all of them yelled out "Wendi!". I haven't been able to listen to it since.

Later-
Me

Did You Ever Know That You're My Hero?

The word idol is thrown around so much. American Idol? Ummm...no... I don't idolize the chick who couldn't even read when she won or the gray haired Joe Cocker copy.
I know I idolize Nikki Sixx, but there are a lot of other people I respect tremendously. They all have one thing in common, they did things their way. They took the hard road the majority of the time and they came out on the other side, stronger and better. A few of them may have had it easier than others, but they still accomplished what they wanted on their terms. I don't idolize these people, but I admire and respect them and am grateful that I discovered them, whether they be musicians, athletes, actors, or just everyday people. There aren't a lot of everyday people on this list, because everyday people usually have to cave in at some point. So, for the sake of clarity, I'm just going to list the famous. So I guess the list is 11 people I respect and admire..in no particular order. Nikki will NOT be on the list as I just flat out idolize him. He is higher than everyone else on this list and always will be.

1. Kevin Smith
2. Boy George
3. Charles Barkley
4. Jack White
5. Axl Rose
6. Johnny Depp
7. Darius Kasparaitis
8. Courtney Love
9. Mick Foley
10. Joey Ramone
11. Manny Ramirez

These people are brave enough to tell people to fuck off, and live out the life they envision. A few, like Axl, Darius and Boy George have gone through some rough times, but they are still who they are and if you don't like it, they don't much care. What they all have is incredible talent in whatever they chose to do and I truly respect talent and ambition and a desire to be your own person. Individuality is what I look for in anyone I deal with in any from. If you're a follower, you're not my type of person. If your individuality is fake, I can spot it and that will drive me away. The weakest link on this list is Axl, because with the hair thing and the bad plastic surgery, he seems like a follower, but he coasts on his talent and determination.
I do what I want, say what I think and personally don't give a damn what others think, because it's a waste of time. Those who are meant to be around you will be, those who aren't will drop away and that's the way it should be. It goes to figure that I admire people who stand on their own and are honest.

Later-
Me

Monday, September 24, 2007

This is my odd to do list. Things I need to remember to take care of before the end of next month. This time of year gets clogged up with stuff, so, maybe if I write it out, I'll remember them all.

1. October 7th... The White Stripes show. Oops, no, that got cancelled. Cool, already one thing scratched off.
2. October 18th... Van Halen show, but that's super iffy, so we'll count that as scratched off too.
3. October 20th.... Sweetest Day. We don't really celebrate it, but my mom still expects some sort of remembrance, so maybe I'll get her a magnet. Not being cheap, she collects them.
4. October 23rd... Call my friend Boz and wish him a happy birthday. Easy enough.
5. October 30th... third anniversary. Figure out gift, which is harder than you'd think. My husband is really hard to shop for.
6. October 31st... Halloween. My favorite holiday. I will spend most of October decorating my house and buying candy for all the trick or treaters we don't get. I usually just buy candy we like, I've learned over the years.
7. Call my friend Shawn.
8. Call my friend Sil.
9. Call my brother.
10. Call my ex stepmother.
11. Nag my husband about calling his sister.
12. Call my friend Kathy.

That's about it. Super boring list, but it's easy writing.

Later-
Me